It took a while, for me to notice, I am not alone

Today I think I lost another friend. I cried a bit. Now I am going to take a nap. Before I go though, I wanted to write briefly.

I thought I lost a friend a little while ago, but Amie straightened me out on that front.

I also sent an email to that friend, to tell her I am sorry, and to see if we can repair our friendship, because I love her and value her, and just don't want to lose her as a friend. I hope she will want to work with me to start building a bridge back to each other, but I know that sometimes that's not possible.

I know that with the dissolution, I am going to lose friends. I know that some people will feel they need to take sides, or will feel I made the wrong decision, or will feel awkward staying friends with both of us, or perhaps will want to end our friendship for other reasons entirely.

It makes me incredibly sad.

But... I made the right decision for the girls and I. Maybe not what someone else would do, but it was what I would do, and I did it. I have to live with whatever consequences there are afterward, be it emotionally, financially, or socially, or in some other area.

I'm not sure if that is what is happening. I don't really know.

All I know is that some of my friends don't approve of the decisions I make or things I do, and I guess that's going to happen. I'm not going to try to please everyone anymore. The people I most want to please are myself, and the twins. It'd be a great benefit to please others, but I can't live my life trying to please everyone and forgetting about myself and the twins.