This is one of those times

I suppose some of the times that I most need writing are the times I feel the least like doing so. Today is one of those days. I really only feel like sleeping in bed, but I'm going to go out to Helena's to keep myself up.

I have tons to write about, but I will stick with today.

I spent the morning changing my address and waiting for social services so I could explain my situation. When my number was called I went up and explained that I had lost my job, and I had two kids to support. They gave me a number to call (typical) so I walked home in the rain and cried in the elevator on the way to my floor.

Another phone number means I have stay on the phone for a long time waiting for someone to answer my call, using minutes on my cell phone since I don't have a home phone right now. Another phone number means I have to try and navigate another Swedish phone system in fast Swedish that leaves me unsure of what number to press. Another phone number means more delays in getting assistance.

I have a job starting December 1. I am a member of the union so that I won't be in this situation again (let go without cause), so the future is brighter.

What I do while I go through two months before being paid is the tough part. I have the equivalent of $50 right now, with no paycheck for this month coming, and nothing until the end of December from the new job. I have a little bit of credit left, but I don't want to use it since I won't be able to pay the minimum payment for it when the bill comes. I won't be able to pay any of my November bills until the end of December, which means I may end up losing cell phone service, among other things.

I know my situation isn't exactly DIRE. But it feels pretty well close. How am I going to feed the kids? We have nothing but left overs in the fridge. How am I going to pay the bills? I doubt I can get a loan while I am unemployed.