Helena had friends over for a bachelorette party for Pernilla tonight. (Pernilla's daughter goes to school with Linnea, and Jesper, Micke, Pernilla, and Helena are all friends.)
I was fine when everyone was here. I had a good time, and everyone was very nice and fun to be around.
But when everyone left, I realized how much it hurt that my marriage is over. I mean, I knew it hurt, but when you have someone else's marriage coming up and someone else's bachelorette party in your face like this was, well, it left me sad.
I see a lot of things in a different light now, but mostly I remember the happy things that I want to share, but then I realize that they were happy. Right now they are sad. Maybe someday I will come to see them the way I saw them before.
Right now I am still mourning.
