money

I had been thinking of taking a trip in March to see family, celebrate my birthday and do a few necessary errands. Among them is to gather my documentation for my taxes which is not properly organized, and renew my driver's license. I had hoped to bring the twins along with me, but I suppose that will have to wait for another time, with costs being prohibitive. I am almost back on my feet, but not quite enough to be able to bring the twins along with me.

I got 750 SEK (about 100 U.S. dollars) from Social Services to buy food until next Wednesday when I meet with a social secretary.

We have to go to the bank to cash the check, then shop at the cheap grocery store so we can get enough - LDL is kind of like ALDI in the U.S.

I can tell you, right at the moment, I feel like a huge loser.

I invited a few friends over for a small gathering tomorrow. It's a bring your own party where everyone is bringing a dish to contribute to a full dinner for everyone.

Hopefully everyone will bring alcohol to share with me too, because I could sure use a drink so I'm not a nervous wreck. One drink tonight and one tomorrow would be lovely. Unfortunately, we can't buy anything, because the 750 needs to stretch to Wednesday and the twins eat so much I am afraid the food will run out before then.

I am so tired of going to the store when I don't have hardly a cent to spend right now. Tyler doesn't understand, and keeps asking for things. I get tired of saying no, and I get tired of feeling awful when I buy things we need because we hardly have any money left, and I worry we will run out any minute.

I know that I'm going to get a job, it's just getting there. I am impatient and worried.

And I really, really want a bike. I'm thinking about charging it. It would be nice if the kids and I could all go biking to places we need to go together once Micke is back at work (he's on vacation) and I haven't found a job.